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Monday, November 28

i'm thinking of more entries so that i can push the entry on leen's birthday further down, (trying to jiang gong shu zui you know) haha before i gets it real hard on my day.

anyway, urmm.. i guess i've got to make a decision about work next year, by this week. waiting for reply from ms yak and then i'll decide. funny its just a job, yet my whole brain cells are affected by it. teaching.. lol can you imagine me teaching?

right pretty packed this week. outing. camping. i want to go for a hair cut.

nothing to blog nothing to blog. (ethb can you see that i'm trying hard to blog something out of nothing?) oh i think i'm going to finish CSI season1 soon, maybe later on. working on a video, stuck with the song. bah.

long enough?

Heli Dont ask me why 5:27 PM

Sunday, November 27

It.

today, i finally realised it.
It's not as if, all along i didn't know that it's occuring,
but it just didn't hit me hard.
someone spelt it out literally to me,
and only then i realised, how true it is.

yes i'm very much affected by it, still is.

Heli Dont ask me why 10:27 PM

Monday, November 21

Take your pick. =D

hmmm the evolution of her faces. haha.

yup today's her big day once again.
the ship forge between us, it's been urmm 4 years and counting and counting..
and ermm although there isn't a lot of communications between us this year,
but here, i just wanna let her know, yup she's been in my mind every now and then.. praying for her, wishing that she'll always have the strength to move on come what may,
and most importantly, hoping she'll be happy.

and so to you, i want to tell you this thing, and that is ermm.. actually all this while, i think your smile is very nice coupled with the two dimples. =) i think it's a gift that you have received and gave others, for haha i think it's a smile that brings happiness and hope. so yup.. do smile often!

and i hereby wish you, that each day of your life, is a perfect day always.

Heh. so this for you, ms eileen tan. happy 17th small one. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 11:25 PM

Thursday, November 17

while most entries posted today would say "It's OVER" , i think its just the beginning to...

HOLIDAYS.

okay that's all i want say. too tired to say anything more haha. ok la at least i feel that geog ended quite nicely today so.. shan't care anymore le anyway. but i'm really drained out i guess, which might have explained why i wasn't that happy bout ending exams. like yt says, "life has lost its meaning" haha which i think holds some truth in it. yeah and it's about work and work and holiday and holiday and work and holiday... so relieve teaching or IRAS is the issue now. but aiya.. i'm gonna rest a few more days and.. hah then go think la.

adios!

A Black Boy, i think.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:28 PM

Wednesday, November 16

Just receive a letter from my bank and it says...

PASSBOOK SAVINGS
STATEMENT OF UNPOSTED TRANSACTIONS AS AT 12 NOV 2005

...

BALANCE: $234.93

to think i'm to spend my super holiday after tomorrow (actually is 26 more hours ) with this amount?? Haha this is very pathetic, i think.

so if anyone is going to jio me out, have to prepare loads of money kay.

if not...

NO MONEY NO TALK. ;)

Heli Dont ask me why 9:13 AM

Thursday, November 10

it nearly drop out from my eyes.
actually, i nearly cried today.
ok.. not those burst into hysterical cry that kind,
but really nearly teared onto my math papers today.

it was hard, really.

ha.. nevermind.

Heli Dont ask me why 10:13 PM

Wednesday, November 9

Life - what a word.
I think.. i'm still young, and..
I don't know anything about life at all.

I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I've been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Heli Dont ask me why 6:38 PM

Monday, November 7

Yes, it's Monday.

And tomorrow is D Day. finally and finally.
so are you.. stress? which of the following do you belong to?

A: stress?
B: stress.
C: stress, stress.
D: stress...
E: STREESSSSSSS.

hah. i think i going a little bonkers.
a little heavy, scared, anxious, heart goes pit-pok pit-pok.
hah i bet this is what i'm gonna feel tmr.

and so... any last words for me? =)

Heli Dont ask me why 1:04 PM

Sunday, November 6

crazy.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:25 PM

Saturday, November 5

was talking to my er ge(2nd bro) just now OH MY GOD THE TV IS NOW SHOWING LIN JUN JIE SINGING ONE THOUSAND YEARS LATER! WO DE TIAN I LOVE THAT SONG LOADS!!

*hum hum hum*

OMG NOW IS YANZI'S TURN LOL.

*"HEY HELLO!"

"WO YOU YI SUO DA FANG ZI...

lols okay now comercial. haha ok as i was saying.. was talking to my bro and i suddenly, aiyo feel like tearing. haha perhaps we didn't talk like that before so.. when he asked about my studies, about me i just felt.. touched after all these years. from not talking, to just smsing each other even at home when we are less than a metre away, to talk a little, to now.. haha.. yup. i believe we will be closer and closer in the near future.

i know he's not going to ermm read this i guess.

still i wanna say..

wo ai ni ge ge. =')

Heli Dont ask me why 8:45 PM

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